'Hope was stolen from us': Navalny death crushing for some Russians in Ottawa
Yara Kadulina left Russia more than a decade ago, but fear followed her across the ocean.
"Most of us ran away from Russia, or don't go back to Russia, because a lot of us are afraid of something there," she said. "Fear extends to those abroad .... I'm in a samesex relationship. A lot of the time, I'm afraid to put it on paper."
That's why she has so much respect for a man who did go back. Opposition figure Alexei Navalny returned to Russia in 2021 after he was treated in Germany for the ef‐ fects of poisoning. He was ar‐ rested at the airport and put in prison. Now he is dead.
Kadulina was devastated by the news. She views Naval‐ ny as a man of integrity and courage. His loss makes her feel "fatalistic."
She dreams of going home one day. Friday evening, at an Ottawa vigil to remember Navalny, that dream felt very far away.
"It will take another 10, 20 years," she said. "So I will probably make it there when I'm old."
About 50 people gathered at the Russian Embassy on Friday. Some were people with Ukrainian roots or con‐ nections, or just concerned citizens of all backgrounds, who often gather there to op‐ pose the war.
But many were Russians. They held candles and car‐ nations. They chanted "Russia will be free" in Russian.
For Maria Urkina, Navalny symbolized the hope of a Rus‐ sia after Putin.
"That hope was stolen from us today," she said.
His death was hard to ac‐ cept, she said.
"I was completely shock‐ ed," said Urkina, who has been in Canada for five years. "First I could not believe, and then I started crying."
But Friday's protest made her feel that, at least, she was‐ n't alone.
'I have to believe that it will get better'
Organizer Tatiana Lebede‐ va said Navalny's views weren't universally supported by the Russian opposition, but he consistently inspired people to not give up and keep protesting, however slim the odds of victory might seem.
"He was also the person and it's really surreal to say this in the past tense - who called out that we shouldn't be doing nothing," she said.
"We're not alone. Hope is not dead, even though that's what it feels like right now."
Antiwar activist Maria Kar‐ tasheva was another orga‐ nizer. She asked the demon‐ strators to remember the po‐ litical prisoners who are still in Russia.
"The loss we had today is enormous, but there are so many people there who are going through the same thing," she said.
"It is a hard time, but we should stay together because this is what he would want, for us to be together, to not be afraid."
Kartasheva became Canadian citizen just weeks ago, after a widely publicized delay due to her conviction in Russia, in absentia.
If she returned to Russia, she would face an eight-year sentence for criticizing the Russian army. But even after Navalny's death, she hasn't lost faith in the idea of a dif‐ ferent Russia.
"While I still live, I need to hope, and I have to believe that it will get better," she said. "I need to believe that it would happen, that I will be able to go home, to see my friends, see my family - not somewhere in some other country, but there, where I grew up - to hug them."
After speeches, the demonstrators walked. They formed a memorial of flowers and posters at the edge of Strathcona Park, not at the embassy, with many saying they expected Russian diplo‐ matic staff to quickly destroy anything they left in Naval‐ ny's memory.
At the edge of the park, Kadulina pointed to a photo of Navalny and spoke to her daughter in Russian.
"People are afraid a lot of the time. That's why people don't come to protests or don't express themselves .... Here we have more freedom to do that," she said, translat‐ ing her message.
"You should not be afraid, you should be courageous and stand up for your values, like he did."
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